Today, while watching The Proposal (oh hush, it's hilarious, and Ryan Reynolds is SO HOT), it struck me. I finally realised why I'm so scared of being alone.
Nona, my grandmother, was diagnosed with breast cancer recently. She's 87, and has had a long and happy life, besides being chronically asthmatic, so the drama was minimal. She had surgery this morning. She's fine.
But what if she wasn't? Today, the Dragon is here; who will be here tomorrow? Amma? What if Amma is sick? Who is going to help me be strong when my world comes crashing down, if that person is always a parent?
Nona, my grandmother, was diagnosed with breast cancer recently. She's 87, and has had a long and happy life, besides being chronically asthmatic, so the drama was minimal. She had surgery this morning. She's fine.
But what if she wasn't? Today, the Dragon is here; who will be here tomorrow? Amma? What if Amma is sick? Who is going to help me be strong when my world comes crashing down, if that person is always a parent?
Even if you get married, you cannot depend on that one person. So you'll always need to have a gang of people. And sometimes there will be noone... and that's ok too.
ReplyDeletedefinitely. but it's still terrifying. and, as i recently learned, sometimes every friend in the world has something pressing to do =)
ReplyDeleteWhat The Bride said. I've always thought that the idea of someone being there to complete you or to hold you up in those terrible times is a little ... oversold. You can't really expect someone to come by and complete you like a jigsaw puzzle that's got one piece missing. It's too much pressure, and at the end of it all, people are fallible. Every single one of them.
ReplyDeleteI don't mean to be all dark and gloomy here but I do think that it helps to be practical about these things. That's my practicality up there.
*Hug* you'll be alright ... you'll see :)
well no one said anything about completing! it's just someone who can take over while you take a break. and maybe im just a strange person but to me it's very important that sometimes i can curl up and give up and somebody will tell me it's all going to be okay. like i said, it can be a friend a parent a sibling, but the general advantage in it being a sigoth is that they are usually physically present nearby and very few things can take higher priority.
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